This post is by our guest blogger and Little Peace of Mind graduate, Amie Joof.
Here Amie shares her story of change – you can find all the posts in this series here: http://alittlepeaceofmind.co.uk/amie
When I was a kid, I absolutely loved long car journeys, especially on motorways. I’ve lived in London my whole life, so being on motorways was like being in a whole other country, seeing the green and the cows. It was magical. As I got older and started believing I had anxiety that could control me, I started to believe motorways were scary and dangerous. I avoided them, which meant I couldn’t go to my favourite place for years. The seaside.
However, today, I’ve done just that.
We drove for 2 hours on the motorway today. I sang. I napped. I saw the cows. I laughed. I felt excited to see the sea again. I couldn’t wait. I didn’t want the car journey to end. The motorways were so exciting. I saw so much.
I spent hours in the arcades, I ate inside a restaurant, I ordered my own food. These things are normal to me now. I don’t feel scared.
My sister turned to me on the beach and said “I haven’t asked you if you’re okay once today, but I don’t feel like I need to check in on you. You’re just like a completely different person. You’re like the old you, but even better.”
I got to the beach for the first time in a long time. Doing what I love again. The rules about the distance I can travel are all rules that I made up. My “comfort zone” doesn’t exist. My home is not my safe place. I am safe at home and I am safe 2 hours away at the beach, because I have wisdom with me wherever I go. I don’t leave it at home. It comes with me. I am wisdom.
I had the most amazing day. I feel free. I feel happy. I feel grateful. I have truly come back home.